I Tried...

Song of the day:
Bone Thugs-N-Harmony
featuring Akon
"I Tried"

I've an announcement to make...

Me.

Kelvin.

Has flunked....

AGGAAINN!

Hurray dude! Let's party dude!

Sounds crazy isn't it?

How many times must it happen to me? 100 times? 1000 times?

I don't even know how long I can live to get 100 times of chances.

In case you don't know what I'm talking about, I'll quote the previous blog entry so you can understand what I've said.

"I'm still single but it very much depends on the agenda that I've mentioned earlier in this blog entry."
- Pre-season... / Constipation Vs Pooing...

The whole situation is like that:

I know a girl, A since secondary school time (at that time I was a sixth former and she's only 4th former).

She was really cute and cheerful as that's her real character. Of course that's gotta attract my attention.

But I didn't exactly know her until after she graduated from secondary school. Then I realise that I get along with her well so I started to feel good about being with her.

Next, she started working full time and working part time. So her life got busy and I didn't get to see her many times within the next 2 years.

Fast forwarding to now, only the past Saturday I met her for the 5th time in 2 years ++.

I gave her birthday presents, including a birthday card and a confession note. But I didn't directly confess to her.

So for the next 2 days, I tried to sms her back but she didn't reply.

Only this afternoon that I received her reply which said "Oh I don't know how to reply you. I want my bf in the future to be in the same field with me...".

Haha.

Sounds crap isn't it?

That's life dude.

I tried to know her and be patient. But my feelings only grew a few months ago.

Anyway, romance is the hardest subject in the world.

One can work hard for it but never get back the same result. NEVER I say.

It's true. It's tough and it's unpredictable. It's so bias that sometimes I wonder what romance is all about.

It seems to me that I can't choose but other people especially girls can choose.

So I'm frustrated. And I wonder why should I even pursue romance now in my life?

A waste of time isn't it? Ya, I thought so.

My life is not as great as everybody thinks and I'm a loner in some ways.

Therefore a soulmate or a girlfriend is a good option to share views, share my care and kindness to a person.

Sigh. I tried.

Maybe it's me against the world again. Whatever. Let them choose.

I'll get my chance to reject girls which I doubt would happen in my life time.

Haha...

Tsk tsk...

Girls is a hard topic to tackle and good luck to those who are tackling them right now.

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Intro

Bone Thugs Akon yeah
You know though nothin' come easy, you gotta try real, real hard
I tried hard, but I guess I gotta try harder.

Chorus

I tried so hard, can't seem to get away from misery,
Man I tried so hard, but always be a victim of these streets,
It Ain't my fault cause I, try to get away but trouble follows me,
And still I try so hard, hopin one day they'll come and rescue me,

But until then, I'll be posted up right here rain, sleet, hail, snow (hail snow)
But until then, I'll be posted up right here with my heat gettin dough (gettin' dough)

Verse 1

First, let me explain that I'm just a black man,
And I come from the darkside, so I'm havin a hard time stayin on track man,
My mind be racin', and I don't even know what I'm chasin yet
Been in and out of relationships, I'm startin to see that it's me where the complications at
But I'm layin back, prayin' that, you get that piece of mind of me
I thought I was right, but really I'm wrong, but again I was too blind to see,
I was in the fast lane chasin my dream,
And then it seemed when the fame and cash came, they just got me,
Goin crazyyyy, (lately, lately) lately I been so faded trying to erase it,
But I just can't cause the drama just grows greater,
And I been in so many collisions by puttin shit off till later.
Chorus

I tried so hard, can't seem to get away from misery,
Man I tried so hard, but always be a victim of these streets,
It Ain't my fault cause I, try to get away but trouble follows me,
And still I try so hard, hopin one day they'll come and rescue me,

But until then, I'll be posted up right here rain, sleet, hail, snow (hail snow)
But until then, I'll be posted up right here with my heat gettin dough (gettin' dough)

Verse 2

It's like I'm takin five steps forward, and ten steps back
Tryna get ahead of the game but I can't seem to get it on track
And I keep runnin away the ones that say they love me the most
How could I create the distance when it's supposed to be close? And uh,
I just don't know but I be out here fightin demons and
It's like the curse that I can't shake this part of Cleveland and
Lord, would you help me? And stop this pain
I keep inflinctin on my family (family)
Hustlin and gamblin, drinkin' and scramblin'
And losin sight of what I supposed to be handlin'
It's hard to manage cause every days a challenge and man
And I'm slippin can't lose my balance and tryin not to panic

Chorus

I tried so hard, can't seem to get away from misery,
Man I tried so hard, but always be a victim of these streets,
It Ain't my fault cause I, try to get away but trouble follows me,
And still I try so hard, hopin one day they'll come and rescue me,

But until then, I'll be posted up right here rain, sleet, hail, snow (hail snow)
But until then, I'll be posted up right here with my heat gettin dough (gettin' dough)

Verse 3

I see thangs won't change (wont change) I'm stuck in the game
As soon as I get out it keeps pullin me back man (pullin me back man)
Got me doin' dirty dirt, so used to this hustlin money,
That I don't understand no nine to five work
Studied on the streets, hustlas know what I mean
Thugstas ballin' before us I'm tryna make that major league
So we never leave never till the sun came up (came up)
Gotta get it nope, no leavin, no grudge (no grudge) today games they play gotta go hard to get what you put in, if you fall off then its all on you (on you) gotta watch what you sign too, try so hard but I won't act a fool.

Chorus

I tried so hard, can't seem to get away from misery,
Man I tried so hard, but always be a victim of these streets,
It Ain't my fault cause I, try to get away but trouble follows me,
And still I try so hard, hopin one day they'll come and rescue me,

But until then, I'll be posted up right here rain, sleet, hail, snow (hail snow)
But until then, I'll be posted up right here with my heat gettin dough (gettin' dough)