Tired is a word that is used quite often to stress a person's fading physical condition which requires the rest and relaxation of body.
Tired, in another way, is also applied in a way such that it stresses on a person's fading enthusiasm in certain things in life.
I'm tired, indeed.
Well, I've lived 23 years on this planet.
I've seen a lot. I've heard a lot. I've thought a lot.
I'm tired.
My life is just a routine of activities.
But I'm not tired of routine.
What I'm tired of is...
the recurring failure in certain things in life (i.e. romance, dreams, wishes)
the unjust and bias world that would return to the dark age very soon
having to live through what I don't really like
having to bear the burden of social norm (which I rate as "not the best option")
I always think a lot before I go into deep sleep.
I guess that's the reason why I suffer from insomniac so often.
But it's difficult for me to get a peace of mind as I love to think of stuff.
I realise that I've been pretty useless in romance.
People might say my destiny hasn't arrived yet but I used to have the belief that people have to strive to have a lifetime partner.
But now I'm tired of that belief and with the recurring failure I face in this aspect, I alter it and now it'll be 5 years of "no relationship whatsoever" period for me.
I also realise that the world is extremely or I should say super duper complicated and unjust.
Religion is a sensitive issue which has been manipulated by a lot of the so-called "religious scholars".
I also believe that the dark age is coming very soon.
Maybe not in my lifetime, but most likely it'll happen in a century's time.
People's mind are easily corrupted by words from books and by other influential people.
Once people are influenced, they hardly return to their usual self.
Sigh.
Changes is also something which I'm tired of.
Ya, people say changes are always for the better.
But to me, changes are not always for the better and changes would lead to too many consequences.
If the Earth is a person, she would say that "I want to remain my own self!".
Humans are the roots of the Earth's slow and significant destruction.
Humans cannot blame other humans about this. They can only blame themselves.
It has been the worst exam experience I've ever endured in my entire schooling life.
I've to dig into books and notes to study.
Why?
I haven't been really studying now consistently for the past semester. :D
Kinda recalling stuff, I guess this is the 2nd last ending of my life.
Exams-wise of course.
I don't know whether I'll miss exams or not after I graduate.
But I know there would be other forms of exams in my up and coming life.
Some are visible, some are invisible, some are predictable, some aren't.
Now the focus in my life would be on my final year project.
The micro-controller based project.
YiPEE!...
It's another round of headache to be honest BUT it'll be a boredom killer for sure.
I remembered having the experience to endure a weird, difficult but interesting industrial training, facing the computer everyday just dealing with programming stuff.
Woot... *Insert shifty eyes emoticon*
But I'm a person who prefers to do things using the "Kelvin" way (besides from the "Arsenal" way).
I prefer to have an almost 90% say in what I am going to do rather than compromising with other people's idea which might clash with the "Kelvin" way.
Therefore, sometimes I wonder whether I can work well in a group of people.
This past semester taught me several things about team-working and its pros, cons and importance.
Throughout the whole semester, I had to endure a totally new concept of laboratory in my faculty known as PBL Laboratory (Problem Based Learning).
Students are put into groups of 4, where each group has to undergo a project for a month in a particular field.
So brainstorming, team-working, hands-on experience, presentation etc. are required to be done in a group work basis.
Phew... I had a hard time working with these guys as I know my workload would always be much more than the other members.
The reason:
I'm a person who wants things to be as good as it can get.
I'm lazy at times to return to uni for discussions
I don't trust my members enough to achieve what I want.
Therefore, my group members are always considered to be pretty fortunate due to my presence in the group.
I'm not a perfectionist and this is not a joke, but I've met a lot of people whose expectations are way higher than what I expect.
So, I'm a person who just wants to get things right and as good as it can be.
For instance, laboratory experiment presentation slides.
After conducting a particular experiment, usually it would be me giving out orders to group members (Yes, me always) to do their part in the presentation slides and those fellas had to hand it to me for editing purposes.
And who does the editing?
Me, Kelvin Lye Kwong Loong aka Kevlinefm aka Kel.
Besides, I'm always the person to organize stuff in the group.
E.g. gathering members for presentation rehearsal, meetings and report gathering.
Luckily we don't have a post-mortem. *Insert shifty eyes emoticon*
Therefore, team-work, to me, is always about me, me, me and the added workload on my shoulders.
It's always the same for each and every assignment throughout my entire uni life.
I wish to work individually sometimes and the chance has come for me to work ONLY for myself.
Hurray!...
Hopefully this doesn't sound like I'm announcing that I'm "anti-social" or a misfit.
One more semester later, I would reach another cross-roads in my life.
A lot of my uni friends are readying themselves for the new challenges in the working world.
But I seem to be the only one without a direction.
I'm not sure.
I'm not so keen on working and yet I'm also not so keen on continuing my studies in the engineering field.
So, it's a dilemma "awwwwwwwww, awwwwwwwww" (Just fantasizing about Nelly's "Dilemma" featuring Kelly Rowland).
This would be one decision that requires my utmost attention.
To be honest, I've not been enjoying life for the past 3 and a half years.
So, I would want to enjoy life after graduating before even considering stepping into the working world.
But people around me are so eager to get into THAT world that it seems so unbelievable at times.
:(
Putting that aside, I've decided to buy an Arsenal jersey, the away white kit from England!
:D
I've been thinking of getting one since early July when the white kit was released.
Drooling and drooling over it.
Sanderson got one with "Adebayor 25" on it and I want it. :(
Anyway, I've been discussing with my pal in England to get me one.
I'll most likely get Hlebby 13 as he's the best player I've ever seen in central midfield.
Sorry to Man Untied but Scholes, Nani, Keane, Owen Hargreaves, Carrick and other Man Untied are not even fit to lick his boots.
Arsenal would be playing Wigan this Saturday without the first choice central midfield pairing of Flamini and Cesc (Flamster suffered an injury and Cesc suspended after picking up his 5th yellow card of the season).
Finally I got another breather again in the so-called Raya celebrations...
To be honest, Raya is never a day of celebration for me. Never ever.
Anyway, it's been a few days which are full of deep thinking.
I've not been too happy of late especially after I did my medical check up.
Alright, the results are not out yet but I'm not too optimistic anyway.
Putting that aside, what has been so "impressive" that I've to name this blog entry as "Impressive..."?
See the following poster...
Yes. It's 881.
881 is pronounced in mandarin similarly to papaya.
Basically it's a movie about the Chinese Getai shows in the 7th month of the Lunar calendar.
Usually in Singapore, Getai shows are shows that aim to entertain the so-called ghosts and spirits as in the 7th month of Lunar calendar, the door of hell would open and ghosts and spirits would wander around the human world.
Of course, to entertain them, one of the ways is through singing and acting and doing performances.
881 has totally blown me away. It really has.
I've never seen such an impressive South-east Asian movie in my entire life.
Ok, it's not action packed or super CGI-based or related, but I've personally loved watching movies which are closer to my roots, my chinese roots to be honest.
Singapore movies have been improving from time to time and the scripts and directing style are starting to gain recognition too.
I'm not a Singaporean but I'm so proud to be a Chinese where Chinese movies especially from South-east Asia are making a name for themselves.
I still want to take a dig at Malaysian movies which are always required to add the "Malay" flavour in it.
Oh c'mon, is this Malay-land? or Malaysia?
Sick of that. Sue me if you want, Malaysia film makers but this is a fact.
Anyway, in 881, the way the director (Royston Tan) control the plot was superb.
It's a flashy, fantasy-based, idealistic, touching piece of artwork.
I would say the ingredients of the movie are well-balanced and if you really like Hokkien or dialect based songs, this is the one for you.
I love Hokkien songs as they can relate to almost everything in the world (well luckily not about religion because it's so irrelevant).
From the familiar "Ye Hua (Wild Flowers)" to "Lian Hua (Lotus Flower)", it's also a bit of a musical based movie which is furnished with superb stage performance, flashy presentation and exaggeration of the real life situation.
Yet, I feel that it has already tone down some of its parts in the real Getai Show.
Nevertheless, the main characters in the movie, the Papaya sisters were a perfect pair. Known as Big Papaya and Small Papaya in the movie, they coincidentally met up during a Getai show whereby both of them loved watching their Getai show idol, Chen Jin Lang perform.
That was where the story starts.
I won't elaborate much on the storyline though. Watch it for yourself.
It really worth the 8 or 10 bucks.
And I almost cried during the movie. (The 2nd time since "The Day After Tomorrow")
Most importantly, appreciate the best song from the movie, "Yi Ren Yi Ban (Half Each)", sang by Wu Jia Hui.
Tottenham Hots**t - Arsenal (A) - EPL - 1-3 (Adebayor, Fabregas, Adebayor)
Arsenal - Sevilla (H) - UCL Group H - 3-0 (Fabregas, RVP, Eduardo)
Our midfielders have been a great form, scoring most of the goals.
But there are worrying matters such as injuries which depleted the squad in defense and now it's taken our best wingers, and of course the lack of goals from RvP, our top goalscorer last season.
The positives are that the goals are coming from midfield, which is definitely something extra for Arsenal now.
Goals win us games and hopefully the trend would continue. :)
Later today, Arsenal would face Derby County without 6 players, which is a worrying situation. :(
But I hope we're strong enough mentally to beat these newcomers. :)
Anyway, my final year project planning has been pretty good and smooth lately.
I've planned that the project would be started one week after my final exams for this semester ends.
It would give me a much needed boost to start my project as it would require lots of thinking and brain-storming.
Not easy stuff you know, especially when your friend might depend on your project as well. :(
PIC is a great chip man. I'm beginning to love this project as I've known a great deal about the chip and its related programming software during my attachment. :)
But what worries me now is the possibility of having more tests in the next few weeks.
I hate tests but what to do.
Oh ya, I've just been to one of the hottest cafes in my area, which is the Ipohmali Old Town White Coffee Cafe.
But only today I found that their French toast is a NO NO to me.
It is superbly oily damn it! And I can't believe that it's so yucky!
Sorry, I've to say this man. No offence to Old Town White Coffee. :)
Priorities are things that you feel are important to you and would normally be arranged or ranked.
How are priorities arranged?
*Hmmm*
Depends.
Everybody has their own mindset and would choose what's more important over another thing.
So what are my priorities?
Usually at this stage of life (i.e. young adult), people would tend to choose several categories as their main priorities in life.
Love (Romance), Study Life/Working Life, Money, Entertainment, and a small amount of Family Responsibility...
Why a little of Family Responsibility?
Young adults (which I often refer to as 20 to 25 years of age) are not yet involved in family planning (bar those who had shotgun marriage or likewise).
So being parents to newborn babies is still out of the range of young adults' priorities.
Now, study life/working life would dominate a young adult's priorities.
Achieving great grades or working hard and smart in a new working environment are a few things which young adults would focus on.
Another one would be romance.
This is usually related to "boyfriend/girlfriend search", as most people would call it.
Either boys or girls would initialize their search for a suitable companion.
And this is also the age for constant flirting and constant headache over love/romance problems.
Money would also be another headache, especially for students.
Young adults would usually use the catch phrase "Not enough money to use ahhhhh!" or similar.
Weirdly enough, I'm not one of them but I know I'll be one once I start working. :D
Entertainment...
Young adults would normally try to avoid boredom.
Why?
This is due to the fact that in a few years (or months) time they would be stepping into the real world.
When that time arrives, there would be no time for high quality entertainment or should I say enjoy more fun in different ways.
So constant travelling and vacation trips would be held. Some would always go clubbing and drinking during weekends to add more "flava" to their life.
Therefore, what are your priorities in your life?
If you ask me about that a few years ago, I would answer you based on my ranking:
Love (Romance)
Studies
Family + Friends
Music
Now my answer would be
Family + Friends AND Arsenal
Music
Studies
I still feel stupid for putting "love/romance" as my MAIN priority last time, which is approximately one and a half year ago.
During my teenager years, I always thought of getting a girlfriend and I thought it would be a joy to have a companion who would help me and motivate me along the way.
But, during these years, I've also learnt one thing: Humans are realistic, especially coming to the romance topic.
Girls are just girls. Looks is everything. Backstabbing and rejection are normal stuff to them.
Pyschologically, I'm sick of all these stuff now.
Maybe girls would laugh off my opinions. But if you are a girl, you would also think of boys as the same.
I don't know. I always try to figure out what I've done wrong.
And I realise that it's not always my problem. It's their problems, the girls' problems.
I can't understand that so finally I change my mindset and drop that as my main priority.
Obsession towards something is indeed a good way of shifting focus from a particular stuff.
But it actually works for me.
Arsenal is my new obsession, other than music of course. And I think I've repeated it for umpteen times already.
My pals on the Internet are passionate Arsenal fans whom I can relate to, regardless of the gender or race.
Besides, I always have my family by my side even though they are always taunting me and looking down upon me.
I would always tell them off to be honest. :p
But what they've provided me is a different kind of warmth and kindness.
I don't know about friends though. I've been living in this world for a few years with a few pretty tasteless friendships.
But at least I've not gone through any negative moments with my friends as compared to my active lifestyle with friends in the past.
Maybe this is what we Chinese normally say, "One doesn't know another without fighting/argument" (“不打不相识”).
Anyway, no matter what your priorities are, please review what has gone through in your life before you rearrange or make them.
Song of the day: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus "False Pretense"
Expectations.
Disappointments.
Both words are opposite to each other.
As August creeps in, things start to shape up.
Things?
Well, EPL would begin this Saturday as Arsenal would challenge for the title after 2 disappointing 4th placed campaign in consecutive seasons.
Another one would be about my final year stuff...
Expectations start to build when things start to shape up.
Therefore, it's inevitable that efforts need to be put in to meet expectations.
Arsenal-wise, this season would be one season where expectations are extremely high even though several big players have left the club.
Henry, Ljungberg this summer; Pires, Campbell, Cuntley Cole last summer; Lauren last winter.
Basically, almost 90% of the "Invincibles" of 2003/04 has left the Arsenal.
This season would be a 99% totally brand new season for the new generation.
Robin van Persie, Cesc Fabregas, Theo Walcott, Emmanuele Adebayor, Kolo Toure, William Gallas (well he's in the new generation team despite his age), Gael Clichy, Tomas Rosicky, Gilberto, Alexander Hleb.
These would be the names who MUST step up and show that the Arsenal have aspirations...
This team was definitely assembled to win titles, but at the moment, work is still in progress.
HOWEVER, I firmly believe what I've said last season.
2007/08 is the year for the Arsenal to shine.
And I stand by my opinion on that.
Final year-wise, the project would start very soon after the title is finalised in the next few weeks.
I would begin a much busier schedule that would enable me to work as a final year student.
*Well, I was damn lazy in the past few weeks.. :p*
I expect to do a topic known as "Space Vector Modulation" and I won't explain the concept here because it would take me ages to explain that..
My personal expectation would be to put as much effort and soul as possible in my project.
So that I can achieve a degree and graduate smoothly from that UTM.
It sounds boring though, but this is not an easy task. Never easy.
Anyway, I am relishing the challenge (Arsenal-wise and Final year-wise).
And I sincerely wish Arsenal the best of luck.
You (Arsenal) would always be my all, my everything, my mental support, my interest!!!
Song of the day: Daughtry featuring Slash! "What I Want"
July 2007 marks the beginning of another academic year for me.
The number 12 would be an important one.
12 more months.
I'm gonna end my stay in the varsity that I don't love but don't hate.
Final year approaches, which is kinda eerie in some ways.
I've lost damn lot of interest in studies during the 2 month++ industrial training.
And I've lost my focus on studies.
Yet tonnes of tasks would force me to regroup my attention.
When would that happen?
Anyway, final year project would begin approximately on Monday, after I get to know who my facilitator would be.
It's scary to even think about that.
Let's reminisce a little about my past 3 years in my varsity, UTM.
It's not much of a memorable experience.
But I've known some cool friends, some pretty interesting people along the way.
I've also witnessed some reality of life in between.
Politics is always dirty I tell ya. Something in varsity that I witnessed taught me about it.
For example, UTM authority practise what I call "Autocratic System".
In varsities, there would be polling day annually in order to choose the new set of students representatives in the Senate.
But starting from don't know when, due to complains from the varsity authority about the ways the candidates attract votes, they dismissed almost all the student representatives that got the most votes and replaced them with their own.
What a joke. Dirty system.
Racial issues cannot be totally erased. Bias is still a pretty heavy element in Malaysia local varsities.
One obvious example is the STPM (Form 6) vs Matriculation.
Dude, matriculation would always have to stand aside if compared to STPM.
Matriculation is only a way to help the Malays to achieve varsity entries. What about other races?
And please, the percentage of Malays entering local uni is definitely large because of the way the Government handles such stuff (special mandate).
BIAS...
Malaysian mentality - Government sectors, including local varsities would always adopt what they call the best solution to everything, which is "Prevention is better than cure".
For example, my varsity set a set of stupid rules (namely No leaving the campus after 12 midnight) to prevent students from any accidents.
C'mon dude, that's not gonna prevent anything much.
And a general reminder to these Government sectors - Educating people would be a much better, effective way.
Sigh.
All these rants are pointless to be honest.
Fast forward to now, the final year would be a damn busy experience.
I don't know how I would handle the pressure but I'll try to stay as close to my family and friends around me as possible.
12 more months and I'm leaving the varsity to head for the step up in life.
I have to admit that I'm still a kid-adult or kidult so I won't be able to convert into a 100% adult.
I'm pretty sure of that.
Till now, I still don't have a clear view of my future.
But I've set some new goals.
I wanna finish my scuba diving lessons and achieve a license.
Then I'll decide what I would do with the license.
Post-graduation period would be a vital one for me to decide my direction of life.
However, it's still pretty vague.
One voice tells me that I should ditch engineering and do what I want in life.
Song of the day: Bone Thugs-N-Harmony featuring Akon "I Tried"
I've an announcement to make...
Me.
Kelvin.
Has flunked....
AGGAAINN!
Hurray dude! Let's party dude!
Sounds crazy isn't it?
How many times must it happen to me? 100 times? 1000 times?
I don't even know how long I can live to get 100 times of chances.
In case you don't know what I'm talking about, I'll quote the previous blog entry so you can understand what I've said.
"I'm still single but it very much depends on the agenda that I've mentioned earlier in this blog entry." - Pre-season... / Constipation Vs Pooing... The whole situation is like that:
I know a girl, A since secondary school time (at that time I was a sixth former and she's only 4th former).
She was really cute and cheerful as that's her real character. Of course that's gotta attract my attention.
But I didn't exactly know her until after she graduated from secondary school. Then I realise that I get along with her well so I started to feel good about being with her.
Next, she started working full time and working part time. So her life got busy and I didn't get to see her many times within the next 2 years.
Fast forwarding to now, only the past Saturday I met her for the 5th time in 2 years ++.
I gave her birthday presents, including a birthday card and a confession note. But I didn't directly confess to her.
So for the next 2 days, I tried to sms her back but she didn't reply.
Only this afternoon that I received her reply which said "Oh I don't know how to reply you. I want my bf in the future to be in the same field with me...".
Haha.
Sounds crap isn't it?
That's life dude.
I tried to know her and be patient. But my feelings only grew a few months ago.
Anyway, romance is the hardest subject in the world.
One can work hard for it but never get back the same result. NEVER I say.
It's true. It's tough and it's unpredictable. It's so bias that sometimes I wonder what romance is all about.
It seems to me that I can't choose but other people especially girls can choose.
So I'm frustrated. And I wonder why should I even pursue romance now in my life?
A waste of time isn't it? Ya, I thought so.
My life is not as great as everybody thinks and I'm a loner in some ways.
Therefore a soulmate or a girlfriend is a good option to share views, share my care and kindness to a person.
Sigh. I tried.
Maybe it's me against the world again. Whatever. Let them choose.
I'll get my chance to reject girls which I doubt would happen in my life time.
Haha...
Tsk tsk...
Girls is a hard topic to tackle and good luck to those who are tackling them right now.
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Intro
Bone Thugs Akon yeah You know though nothin' come easy, you gotta try real, real hard I tried hard, but I guess I gotta try harder.
Chorus
I tried so hard, can't seem to get away from misery, Man I tried so hard, but always be a victim of these streets, It Ain't my fault cause I, try to get away but trouble follows me, And still I try so hard, hopin one day they'll come and rescue me,
But until then, I'll be posted up right here rain, sleet, hail, snow (hail snow) But until then, I'll be posted up right here with my heat gettin dough (gettin' dough)
Verse 1
First, let me explain that I'm just a black man, And I come from the darkside, so I'm havin a hard time stayin on track man, My mind be racin', and I don't even know what I'm chasin yet Been in and out of relationships, I'm startin to see that it's me where the complications at But I'm layin back, prayin' that, you get that piece of mind of me I thought I was right, but really I'm wrong, but again I was too blind to see, I was in the fast lane chasin my dream, And then it seemed when the fame and cash came, they just got me, Goin crazyyyy, (lately, lately) lately I been so faded trying to erase it, But I just can't cause the drama just grows greater, And I been in so many collisions by puttin shit off till later. Chorus
I tried so hard, can't seem to get away from misery, Man I tried so hard, but always be a victim of these streets, It Ain't my fault cause I, try to get away but trouble follows me, And still I try so hard, hopin one day they'll come and rescue me,
But until then, I'll be posted up right here rain, sleet, hail, snow (hail snow) But until then, I'll be posted up right here with my heat gettin dough (gettin' dough)
Verse 2
It's like I'm takin five steps forward, and ten steps back Tryna get ahead of the game but I can't seem to get it on track And I keep runnin away the ones that say they love me the most How could I create the distance when it's supposed to be close? And uh, I just don't know but I be out here fightin demons and It's like the curse that I can't shake this part of Cleveland and Lord, would you help me? And stop this pain I keep inflinctin on my family (family) Hustlin and gamblin, drinkin' and scramblin' And losin sight of what I supposed to be handlin' It's hard to manage cause every days a challenge and man And I'm slippin can't lose my balance and tryin not to panic
Chorus
I tried so hard, can't seem to get away from misery, Man I tried so hard, but always be a victim of these streets, It Ain't my fault cause I, try to get away but trouble follows me, And still I try so hard, hopin one day they'll come and rescue me,
But until then, I'll be posted up right here rain, sleet, hail, snow (hail snow) But until then, I'll be posted up right here with my heat gettin dough (gettin' dough)
Verse 3
I see thangs won't change (wont change) I'm stuck in the game As soon as I get out it keeps pullin me back man (pullin me back man) Got me doin' dirty dirt, so used to this hustlin money, That I don't understand no nine to five work Studied on the streets, hustlas know what I mean Thugstas ballin' before us I'm tryna make that major league So we never leave never till the sun came up (came up) Gotta get it nope, no leavin, no grudge (no grudge) today games they play gotta go hard to get what you put in, if you fall off then its all on you (on you) gotta watch what you sign too, try so hard but I won't act a fool.
Chorus
I tried so hard, can't seem to get away from misery, Man I tried so hard, but always be a victim of these streets, It Ain't my fault cause I, try to get away but trouble follows me, And still I try so hard, hopin one day they'll come and rescue me,
But until then, I'll be posted up right here rain, sleet, hail, snow (hail snow) But until then, I'll be posted up right here with my heat gettin dough (gettin' dough)
I've finished doing my industrial training and the corresponding report.
What a boring duration of my life! Damn the boss.
But it's a relaxing place to work and my boss was "OK" to me though.
One thing I don't like about him: He's biased.
My colleague, who's my coursemate also, is from the same hometown as my boss and they speak almost the same language.
Anyway, I wouldn't care about anything regarding the industrial training already.
Lol.
So, it's pre-season here in my life. Pre-season before the real season begins. :(
Luckily for me (unlike DLG, Li Ann in disguise), I've one week of off time before burying myself into a sea of assignments and university chores.
I've been spending endless of time waiting for Arsenal transfers.
And I've been chatting with Wei Jie (Starghazzer) and Sanderson (a friend from Scunthorpe, England) almost everyday about Arsenal.
Boring life? Yeah, maybe but Arsenal is my life.
This week, I've a special agenda in my books. It's pretty tricky to handle though.
If the outcome is positive, I'll post it onto my blog. I promise!
It's the hardest subject in the world. So you make the guess. Hehe.
Pre-season. Arsenal are gonna be having pre-season matches very soon.
Arsenal would play against Barnet this Saturday but I don't think I'll have the chance to watch it UNLESS I've a live stream for that match. Hehe.
I'll make a summary about Arsenal's signings during mid July because I basically think that Arsene's spending spree wouldn't stop at the 4th signing, which was only announced earlier today.
La-Sagna at Emirates
La-Sagna. Delicious. :p
This blog entry is a bit lame, I know but I couldn't find any better topic to talk about.
I'm still the same old me, playing FM 2005 and I'm in the year 2039.
And I'm still listening Daughtry's album and yet to really feel attracted to any new albums.
I'm still single but it very much depends on the agenda that I've mentioned earlier in this blog entry. Lol.
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However, my constipation situation got better since I started shifting my mattress and sleep on the floor.
My bed has bended inwards due to my weight and thus causing me to sleep in the wrong posture for quite sometime already.
4 weeks ago, the constipation situation surfaced and I was brought to a Chinese medical hall and had medicine.
2 weeks later, I thought my situation got better but only after a few days, the situation resurfaced.
I went back to visit the same Chinese physician and got 3 additional medicine added to the original 2 types of medicines.
So I had a week of "medicine consuming" process and eventually got better. And that was only last week.
I don't know how I got the idea of the cause of my illness due to bad sleeping posture but I was determined to change my sleeping posture and thus moving my mattress.
Thank God, I got my smooth disgestion back. And I realise that poo-ing smoothly is indeed a blessing. :)
In the last blog entry, I mentioned about Thierry Henry leaving the club for F**kelona.
No special tribute to him in this one though as we, Arsenal FC, look to the future.
So today's blog entry would be mainly about Arsenal's moves towards the future.
Let's look at certain aspects for simplicity.
a. Arsene Wenger
The master, Arsene Wenger
Basically Arsene Wenger is the main mastermind of the rise of Arsenal FC in the English Premier League.
But lately his future has been talked about a lot.
Henry to F**kelona
The French maestro hasn't signed a new contract and Henry's departure didn't even help at all.
The media circus DO NOT simply let go such a GOLDEN opportunity to slate Arsenal and harm Arsenal. That's what the media do best.
So what Wenger can do now is to calmly consider his future, think about it and make a decision.
A lot of people are saying that he's sure to leave because Henry left.
But I am on the other side of the Henry departure story, where Wenger might stay because Henry left.
Wenger's job isn't done yet since he started it 2 years ago when he sold Vieira to Juventus.
His rebuilding job hasn't ended yet and now with Henry (the so-called "Egoistic" bastard) departed, he can finally put a team which can truly understand each other, which can work with no "egoistic super star bastard" in the team.
b. The Arsenal boardroom
The Arsenal boardroom now is known to be divided into two main camps: pro-Kroenke and old school heads.
I don't know who supports which side but this is definitely not a healthy sign to maintain a club.
If the Arsenal board thinks that Kroenke's take over is bad for the club, then make him a good friend of Arsenal and make plans with him involving.
If the current Arsenal board is unable to take the club towards a better future, Kroenke won't hesitate to launch a take over of Arsenal FC. That's a very obvious fact.
c. Signings
Since July is around the corner, signings are set to pour into the EPL.
But as June barely ends, Arsenal are already linked with all sorts of players. Here and there.
Hmm...
But on this side, the player whom I can confirm coming is a French defender named Bakary Sagna.
Bakary Sagna (I call him "La-Sagna")
Bakary Sagna was voted the best right full back in the French Ligue 1 by his fellow players in that league.
He's a versatile defender who can play across the back 4 and of course 2 of his main positions are left back and right back.
He'll be a great addition as he's likened to Lauren, who left Arsenal 6 months ago.
He can make crunch tackles, he can attack well.
And unfortunately, many Arsenal fans are loathing about him. I don't know what's the fuss.
Since Henry's departure, Arsenal are also linked with damn lots of strikers.
And I can tell you the media loves to make Anelka the Arsenal's "most possible" signing as he's Wenger's protege and he played for Arsenal before.
Anelka returning to Arsenal IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE in my opinion.
But the player I would like to have at Arsenal the most is Klaas Jan Huntelaar.
Klaas-Jan Huntelaar, the Dutch finisher
From a reliable source, I was told that Huntelaar is having talks with Arsenal FC and this Dutch player is VERY INTERESTED to join Arsenal.
Firstly, he's a great finisher. He can score from free kicks, and keeps the ball well.
He has the killer instinct (goalscoring that is) which impresses me the most.
And he loves to score "bicycle" kicks.
Lol.
But his main weakness is his pace.
However, this might make him suitable for the new generation of Arsenal because this new Arsenal team doesn't rely much on pacy counter attack.
So a damn super finisher would be a GREAT asset to the team.
Other strikers mentioned are Obafemi Martins, Carlos Tevez and Ryan Babel.
Tevez is too expensive, Martins is XXXXXX (don't know what to say) and Babel might join Arsenal a little later.
And as I mentioned earlier, June barely ends and patience is needed from all Arsenal fans.
Wait for a while for Wenger to calm his nerves and continue his job, bringing Arsenal towards the next level.
Till then, it has been Kelvin who's been waiting for Arsenal news all month long. Tata.
A day when surprises and shocks rushed into our minds.
Not many Gooners expected this to happen, me included.
I've been without broadband connection at home for days so I've to return to the office to online.
On a sunny Saturday, I was having a pretty good mood and brought my laptop together with me to the office to online.
After connecting my computer to broadband (in my office), MSN launched automatically and a window popped up on my screen.
I wondered what it was as it took a few seconds to load it.
"A MSN chat window... who could it be?"
It was Sanderson, my Arsenal pal in England whom I chat a lot.
As I read the message, I felt a rush of anger, frustration and confuse running through my veins.
It's weird.
"Henry leaving Arsenal for Barca..."
Oh God. Is it for real? I asked myself.
I switched on Mozilla firefox and click on "newsnow.co.uk", the live feed site which is my daily "necessity".
To my horror, the whole page consisted of news about Henry leaving.
Tears began to fall down... Such is an evidence of how vital Henry is to Arsenal and the fans.
It was a sad day that even before that, I was convinced by Sanderson that he'll not leave but it wasn't meant to be like that.
Thierry Henry...
My memory started to accomodate him after I start watching Arsenal in season 2003/04.
What a great season to start watching the Gunners. Or maybe not because of the high expectations for the following seasons.
Thierry Henry wasn't the guy who pulled me to watch Arsenal.
It was always Dennis Bergkamp (whose name is similar to Beckham of the then Man Untied midfielder) who acted as the pulling factor for me.
So, my first game was at City of Manchester Stadium, against Man City.
Anyway, in the first few Arsenal games I watched, Henry didn't impress me much. Maybe I was ignorant of the fact that I'm still a rookie fan who knew little football.
But as time goes by, I learned a lot about attacking football.
The one-twos, the through ball, the crossing, the volley, the passing... Many.
Henry began to fill my life.
So as football controlled part of my life, I began to watch more Arsenal games and luckily for me, I witnessed a lot of Henry's brilliant moments.
The most memorable one was against Liverpool at Highbury.
Never a doubt of the quality of Thierry Henry. Hattrick against Liverpool after much disappointment.
And he was an absolute integral part of the Invincibles squad of 2003/04.
After the departure of Vieira, Henry was announced as the new Arsenal captain.
However, things didn't seem to go Henry's way and even prompted him to reconsider his future at Arsenal.
With his contract not solved, Barcelona were sniffing around him and were always gonna pounce on the French international.
What shocked Henry was that Arsenal were cruising towards the final of the Champions League 2004/05.
Arsenal opponents?
Barcelona.
How ironic can that be??!
Arsenal played them but lost 2-1 with 10 men. It wasn't a shame for Arsenal. It was in fact an over-achievement for a young squad.
Henry thought like wise too. Due to that, Henry signed an 4 year extension at Arsenal, and said "I saw nothing special that night" about Barcelona.
Ya, it was true Barca won because of a one man advantage. Nothing more.
Nevertheless, Henry's stay wasn't gonna be that smooth anymore.
The World Cup damaged Henry's body, thus decreasing Henry's involvment at the Emirates Stadium.
His injury in the first half of the season was frustrating him a great deal. Why?
He has slowly becoming big-headed and thought he's the superstar of the team. He began to gain media attention so that he won't disappear in the eyes of the world.
The Ade-Henry dance was one significant proof.
I don't know much about the dressing room situation but Wenger seems to think that Henry's ego is starting to affect the team in a negative way.
I read on tribalfootball (I know it's an unreliable source) that Real Madrid were offered Henry in the January transfer windows of 2006/07 and this further proves my point.
It doesn't take tonnes of genius to figure the situation out and maybe Henry was preparing to leave Arsenal earlier than we thought.
And only last few weeks, Henry kept saying "At the moment I'm an Arsenal player" and this doesn't diffuse the situation.
A footballing genius like Henry is not that stupid to know it.
It seems inevitable that a football legend like him wants to move.
So, Arsenal.com interviewed him for the last time and the usual excuse of him leaving was "Dein left, Wenger might leave, so I leave".
It's a very bad reason to be honest, trying to act as the good person.
Nevertheless, he has been a great servant to the Arsenal.
He has won many matches for us. He has brought us tonnes of joy. He's a real modern day legend after Dennis Bergkamp.
I would love to give a 100% dedication to him but I still think he doesn't deserve it like Dennis Bergkamp had.
Anyway, I won't mourn the loss of Thierry Henry knowing the fact that his departure will do good in the dressing room.
I will look forward to seeing good youngsters who're willing to work for Arsenal.
Till then, enjoy Henry's top 50 goals in the clip below.
But I usually blame that on "the lack of ideas or inspiration or whatever you wanna call it".
Updates about me:
I've been undergoing practical training for 6 weeks already (excluding this week)
I've been playing FM 2005 since don't know when till now...
My life has been a mess since the BBQ and steamboat during the previous week
I've been eating fruits daily just to improve my digestive system
And walaa I've started chewing my food a lot more than before...
Anyway, it's been a nice weekend since I've an additional off day due to the Agong's Birthday holiday replacement..
Returning to the title today, kid-adult, what is it?
Interestingly enough, I gotta know a lot about this term through a Chinese newspaper (Sinchew Daily, Malaysian Chinese newspaper).
Ironic.
A kid-adult basically is an adult who wants to be in a fantasy world, a childish world.
In other words, he/she wants to do childish things, want to live the way he/she lives when he/she was young.
The possible actions of a kid-adult are possibly as listed below:
Loves to collect toys and figurines
Chats on MSN using tonnes and tonnes of emoticons
Addicted to computer games (everyone is nowadays, but well...)
I don't know why they list these activities to show that an adult is a kid-adult.
But you get the meaning, don't you?
Anyway, a kid-adult is also known to always avoid him/herself from the reality of life and therefore, he/she loves to change his/her living environment. Some even always change their working environment in order to achieve such purpose.
Another important note from the article is that these so-called kid-adults would always spend their money on holidays or always reward themselves after a month long work.
Hmm... I wonder what that means but hey, basically they want to remain as a kid, living as a kid, enjoy life as a kid.
As I read on, a question strucked me: "Am I a kid-adult?".
There are some characteristics pointed out in the article which are similar to mine.
I don't know how to explain but...
Since I entered UTM, I never really wanna indulge myself in engineering.
So I sorta like escape from reality and use certain things/do certain activities to keep myself OUT of the way of life in UTM.
It's pretty obvious that I don't really wanna commit myself to a lot of things happening in UTM and in my course.
Sigh.
And maybe a way of escaping was by watching more football.. :)
I fear sometimes that I might do that (escaping from reality) more when I start working.
Most of the people know that I don't really like engineering.
It's hard for me to do something which I don't really have interest to do.
Just ask Reyes. If you force him to stay at Arsenal, he might commit suicide. :)
But the fact is that one can't force another person to do what he/she doesn't want to.
I know for a matter of fact that a lot of people around me who really ain't studying/doing what they really want/prefer.
Somebody would say, "C'mon, face facts...".
I'm still seriously thinking about the "face facts" part in life though.
Tough...
Crossroads of life....
Maybe for now I'm a kid-adult but let's see... Hmm...
Btw, it's already June and it's very quiet in all fronts (music-wise, Arsenal-wise) and it's boring at this point of time.
Patience is the key to success.. That's how I deceive myself.. Haha
I got hold of the mp3s of this album way before the official release of the new Linkin Park album.
"Minutes to Midnight" is the album title.
Well, as a former LP fan (I treat myself as a Daughtry fan nowadays), I always love to listen to their previous albums.
I remember I bought "Hybrid Theory" after watching Linkin Park's "One Step Closer" video clip on MTV during CNY long long time ago....
I still remember clearly that this track was on the UK Top 40, debuted in positions outside of the top 20 but nevertheless it caught my attention.
After buying the album, I suffered some sort of a culture shock because their music is hard enough for me reject at that time.
But somehow, "Crawling" and "In The End" saved the album from being kept away by me.
I continue listening to the album and love the rest of the tracks, especially "Cure For The Itch" and "Pushing Me Away".
Then after a while, LP releases "Reanimation", where tracks from "Hybrid Theory" were revamped with superb mixing.
"Krwlng" (a reanimated "Crawling") was the best track on "Reanimation" to date. My other favourites were "Enth E Nd" ("In The End") and "Pts.f.Athrty" ("Points Of Authority").
However, "Reanimation" was like an intermediate album or a teaser album before the release of their next album "Meteora".
And this time around, Linkin Park is already well known and they made a worldwide release thingy for "Meteora".
At least, "Meteora" wasn't a letdown.
Harder stuff and style. Superb tunes. These are things that kept the old fans and attracted new fans.
My favourite is always gonna be "Session" (without vocals), "Numb" and "Easier To Run" (a song which was played in my car during my first car accident...).
So Linkin Park hung around for a while with those two albums and then went into hiding for quite some time until...................
May 15th, when they will be releasing their new album "Minutes To Midnight"....
Linkin Park - "Minutes To Midnight"
Basically, I think I'm gonna write a short review of all the tracks in the album...
1. "In Between" - As the opening track, this song is not a good one. It doesn't give you the impact needed. Not that impressive.
2. "In Pieces" - A midtempo track which sounds melancholy. Sounds OK (reluctantly).
3. "The Little Things Give You Away" - The longest track on the album (6 to 7 minutes?!). But a new problem occurs. The 1st half of the track is boring, but the 2nd half (bridge) is superb, blowing me away.
4. "Wake" - This is the "vocal-less" song that would always appear in all Linkin Park's album. It's nice, especially the bass guitar. The awakening feel is clear and the title to this song is oh so correct!
5. "Given Up" - A typical screamo track I would say. Hard guitar riffs too. All in all, not too bad but I think the anger has been overboard.
6. "Leave Ot All The Rest" - A song which sounds too much like a sad pop track, but one can expect hardcore moments in the song.
7. "Bleed It Out" - Finally, more towards the original LP. Rap + Rock. Great bass and rhythm but Chester's coarse vocals are really not required.
8. "Shadow Of The Day" - A nice track, but the 1st half of the song should be heavier. The vocals and solo guitar parts though are.. NICE!
9. "What I've Done" - Linkin Park owe a lot to this song as it's the only track that fits to be the first single. The most consistent song in terms of song "weight".
10. "Hands Held High" - Mike Shinoda solo track I would call this. Using marching beats and pipe organ as background, this song is quite refreshing.
11. "No More Sorrow" - Another hard stuff by Linkin Park. Hard in a sense that would only be done by hard rock bands like Korn. Disappointing though.
12. "Valentine's Day" - Don't be deceived by the title. This song further proves my point where a lot of songs in this album are weak "in the 1st half" and strong "in the 2nd half". Hopefully this is not the style in future LP albums??...
In a nutshell, "Minutes To Midnight" is not anything near to the style of "Hybrid Theory" and "Meteora".
There are many tracks, in my opinion, are overdone and overhyped and overproduced.
Can't be helped, but I personally think that the album is a bit disappointing.
So guys. I think I gave a short insight of the album...
If you have already pre-ordered the album, you must have some mental preparation.
Till then, all the best and PEACE OUT!
P.S.: By the way, take my Kevlinefm's True Friends test. Just click on the picture below.
I'm just so into the mood of logging in online and stuff lately.
Lol... I've been using the computer for almost 18 to 20 hours per day.
Blame my boss for handing me and my friend the task of converting assembly language to C language.
Hell yeah it was damn "nice".
For that, I'm still counting down the weeks towards the end of this pathetic industrial training.
Hmm.. more like industrial hell-ing...
So, with f**ker team Manchester Untied (I love to put it Untied and forever I'll type it that way) won the title with the help of my beloved team, Arsenal.
And every Manchester Untied fan seems to be generous at showing their gratitude towards Gooners.
Well, to all Manchester Untied fans, "FUCK OFF AND GO TO HELL!".
Obviously you know what I mean.
C'mon, who wants to help you guys win the title? Just f**k your ass off, Man Untied fans.
Anyway, it has been an interesting season for Arsenal.
A lot of reflections can be and should be made upon this season, due to the weird storyline to this season.
Big matches: We get points.
Small matches: We lose points.
Bolton: We lost away in the EPL, 3-0; We won at home in the EPL, 2-1; We struggled to beat them in the FA Cup but still won in the end.
Perhaps the worst frustation would be Chelsea's PSV player Alex stopped Arsenal from progressing to the Quarterfinals of the CL.
However, all are not gloom and doom.
For one, I would always stress that INJURIES are the key towards Arsenal's early exit in most cup competitions (bar the League Cup).
I personally think that Arsenal would still only need 2 or 3 players to relocate Arsenal's position to the top of the table next season.
Well, the usual suspects are still Ribery, Eto'o etc.
By the way, a keeper has been very close to joining the Arsenal.
Let's welcome LUKASZ FABIANSKI!
Lukasz Fabianski
Full name
Łukasz Fabiański
Date of birth
April 18, 1985 (1985-04-18)(age 22)
Place of birth
Kostrzyn nad Odrą, Poland
Height
190 cm
Playing position
Goalkeeper
This keeper was Legia Warsaw's No. 2 when Boruc was still first choice in between the goal posts at the club.
With Boruc leaving Legia Warsaw for Celtic, Fabianski was automatically promoted to first choice keeper.
According to news and reports, Arsenal have been keeping in touch with this keeper for quite a while now.
So, maybe we have something to savour upon. Afterall, Arsene did wanna get Cech but the stupid UK rules and bla bla bla.. (you know what I mean).
Here you go... The season hasn't officially ended and Arsenal are increasing their tempo to sign new players in order to prepare for pre-season.
Well, the pre-season is always predictably in Austria.
It'll be a boring June though. Sigh...
Meanwhile, I'll be looking forward to the Champions Youth Cup (August) in KL and Emirates Cup (end of July) in London.
Till then, congratulations to Arsenal for surviving a better season in the league.
My industrial training session has finally started.
Well, I wouldn't say it's a nightmare all in all, but the stuff I''ll be involving in...
It's... pure... madness...
At least for me la, you know.
For an "orang bodoh" like me, programming is the worst thing that could ever happen to me.
The constant "using your head to death" practice must've got me thinking "why I choose engineering"??!!
And even worse, I've to do interpretation of assembly language to C programming.
TOTAL DISASTER!
You know what, the assembly language that I've learnt in uni... Even though all assembly languages are similar, but... it requires a person to completely read through again!
Sigh...
Okay, maybe if you ask Zhe Wei, he won't tell you that programming is a total nightmare.
Lol.
It has it fun part though.
It involves lotsa logic arithmetic, a little bit of mathematical operation and of course the usual "get used to it" language.
Binary, hexadecimal, .. You just have to get used to it...
Anyway, I realise that I've been using this blog to release my utmost tension.
Kinda think of that, I think it's a good way to release tension too...
Oh ya...
Congratulations to Man Utd for getting thrashed by AC Milan.
3-0. I salute AC Milan.
Kaka was, is and would still be class!
Luckily there's no such thing as the "All English Champions League Final". Thank God really.
Well, tbh, I wouldn't give a damn about Manchester Untied (Haha.. really untied). Really...
Lately, there's been so much debate on the potential Arsenal Away Kit 2007/08. Here are 2 clear samples that you can have a look at:
Sample 1
Sample 2
I think both designs are okay, not that bad.
But you know, fans are SOOOOO critical about history and stuff. I'm a fan too, but the design is very ok to me.
Lol... I'll leave the discussions and arguments to others.
May has finally arrived and usually it means that the football season is ending.
Yucks season for Arsenal, but I had lotsa fun too, especially watching Arsenal beating Man Utd twice, Liverpool thrice and witnessing the ocassional total football at certain games such as against Reading and Bolton.
Besides, there are lotsa things to look forward to in May.
Spiderman 3! Linkin Park's "Minutes To Midnight"!
I guess we're spoiled for choice of late. Lol.
Anyway, there's also more "programming stuff" to look forward to. Duh...
Oh ya, I've added a beautiful version of Breaking Benjamin's "The Diary Of Jane"...
Finally, I'm able to get a real sufficient rest...
But not for long.. Sigh~...
Anyway, my industrial training starts next week.
So it's a mere few days to rest.
BUT!
But, I am able to enjoy Arsenal for the first time this season, without any pressure.
I told Wei Jie about this too on MSN...
No doubt, nothing can stop me watching my beloved team playing against Fulham...
I'm hoping for a big win that would be a great revenge on Fulham...
So, the American takeover hasn't happened yet, but there are lotsa speculation and conspiracy theories behind the scenes...
Theories, discussions, debate... Non stop on major Arsenal fans forums and websites...
My opinion on this matter is that... the American won't ruin Arsenal, contrary to the belief of the majority of people.
I firmly believe this takeover would be much different compared to the Liverpool and Man U's, mainly because of Stan's recognition in the sports business in America.
And I firmly believe Wenger needs funds to buy suitable (not necessarily big name) players and the current board of directors seem unlikely to want to give that.
Also, with the transfer window near to its reopening stages, Arsenal are linked to so many players that I almost lose track of the number of them...
One I can reassure you is that Wenger will still buy youngsters.
Earlier today, I read on Triballfootball (not reliable, but readable though) that Dein's departure might jeopardise the Arsenal-Salamanca technical relationship.
This is not a small matter as Salamanca might hold the key for Arsenal to import South American talents.
Carlos Vela, the young Mexican striker, is currently on-loan at Salamanca to get the necessary EU passport in order to play for Arsenal.
It's a fact that young South American players need to get a necessary EU passport before being able to play in England (due to the rules in England).
We've also read about Wenger wanting to buy players such as Petr Cech, Ronaldinho when they were young but couldn't because of the rules in England.
So, Arsenal should take this Salamanca matter very seriously as it could influence the development of Arsenal in the future too.
And all we know in the past few days is that Dein has gone to America on a possible takeover trip, but Dein was quoted to be on a holiday trip with his wife to USA.
If Dein does visit Stan Kroenke and plans a takeover with Stan, then it's inevitable that the takeover could be realised.
There are some points that can be seen clearly:
1. Stan Kroenke wouldn't buy shares and only get a place in the Arsenal boardroom. He might wanna own Arsenal.
2. The reason to 1. is because of the "potential in the soccer business", as mentioned by the American himself.
3. Stan has recently been quoted as saying that he was "unimpressed" by current Arsenal chairman Peter Hill-Wood's taunts. Stan might tell himself that Peter Hill-Wood is definitely an old school fella.
What's gonna happen next? Who knows?
But I hope that the outcome of this matter would benefit Arsenal, Wenger and the team.
Wenger might not need large funds, but he WILL get sufficient funds to buy suitable players whom he needs if Stan comes in.
And I hope Stan would see Wenger as a respectable manager, not a manager who can be controlled and put aside or sacked when the going gets tough.
Lol...
I suddenly vomit a large amount of crap on my blog. Lol!
Sorry for my rant, but this is the only major stuff in my head in real life.
Anyway, my exams have ended and I only have one regret, which was the fact that I flunked my Control paper. Lol.
The others were more or less "kacang". There's one paper that the whole paper was leaked.
That's Malaysian "world-class" university.
Spiderman 3 is around the corner and I'm definitely looking forward to watching Kirsten Dunst, the cutie pie, again!
Cool poster!
As people say, "Revenge would consume a person".
Hopefully Spiderman 3 won't disappoint me, who has waited for a great movie to watch for months!
A Malaysian Chinese living in the capital of the utmost southern region of Malaysia, Johor Bahru. An Internet freako with a weird taste of surfing (which includes multiple refreshing pages in a second). An insane supporter of rock music and the Arsenal! Mind you, the Kel would kill you if you take those away from him!
Stop there and let me correct it I wanna live a life from a new perspective You come along because I love your face And I'll admire your expensive taste And who cares divine intervention I wanna be praised from a new perspective But leaving now would be a good idea So catch me up on getting out of here
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